Just to give you a background of my hair…. I was born with naturally not so great hair. It’s dry, frizzy, impossible to even let it down for the whole day. Growing up my hair caused a lot of insecurity for me. If my hair wasn’t nice than I looked terrible, so I thought. I remember hairspraying it down so I would look decent, and when it rained (I hate rain) I knew it would be a bad day. Luckily I grew up in Southern California, so that wasn’t a common issue. After trying many products on my hair I decided to give these new ones a go.
After I shower I put some of the biosilk leav in conditioner in my hair and once my hair drys I’m not left with greasy looking I obviously put in conditioner type of look. When I go to style my hair I make sure to use the biosilk lite hair oil/serum after (and sometimes in between) styling. If I’m having a long day and my hair feels extra dry, I’ll add some of the serum before and after I have styled. Due to my dry and frizzy hair I am able to do that. I’ve tested this out on days where I will be gone all day and ever since I started using this I’ve noticed that my hair will last much longer through out the day. These products are light but still manage to keep my hair in check. A HUGE added BONUS is that they smell incredibly good too. Like a yummy cucumber body wash 🙂 I picked up my products from TJ Maxx and I believe were both under $10. However, biosilk can be found in other stores/online as well.
If anybody has a holy grail hair product for dry hair, PLEASE help a girl out!!!
-Suzy [Fragile, yet fearless]
I would say I definitely was the black sheep in my family since I was a little kid. I grew up with a nickname I gave myself, I was angry a lot of the time, and I enjoyed being alone. When I was old enough to start having my own views, decisions, and challenges I really knew I was different.
As a kid it’s almost like you grow up believing what your family believes and if someone says they’re wrong, you defend them. Then you get older and start forming your own opinions. Anybody who’s grown up with certain cultural backgrounds knows it comes with a pattern of the way things “need” to happen in your life. A majority of people you know live the same lifestyle not because it’s what they might want, but it’s all that they might know.
From a young age I always thought differently than my family. Even though I was raised part of a certain culture I didn’t believe in a lot of the same things. It could be because I was raised in America, but it could also be because that’s just the way I am. I realized I wanted to have my own personality and create my own future. I didn’t want to live the same life as my parents. I wanted to make my own decision and fail until I succeed. Now I’m older and haven’t felt more out of place than ever.
I’m at a place now where I know that this is life. At this very moment I am living my life and I’m no longer waiting for anything. I’m not waiting to start school, get that skill I’ve been working on at gymnastics, graduate school, get my first job, or get my license. There really is nothing I’m waiting for. I’m ready to start living the life I’ve always wanted. I wasn’t raised to be as independent as I am. I was raised to be dependent on my parents, so I wasn’t prepared for adulthood and moving out.
Now at 24, I’ve decided I am no longer going to try to make my family happy because this is MY life. I’ve been through a lot this past year and most of it I’ve gone through alone. It’s time for me to be happy and if that means making people around me upset than I don’t mind.
I will not apologize for wanting to be happy.
Most of my life I’ve acted like a total adult. I grew up way too fast and always wanted to be surrounded by people older than me. Now being 24 (which is still considered young), I can’t help but feel old. I don’t even like doing things that might be considered irresponsible so I don’t understand what about getting older scares me.
My 20’s so far haven’t even been the best years. I’ve gone through more insecurity, rejection, and fear in my 20’s than ever before. Maybe that’s the problem? I think I just found out the answer by writing this blog! Maybe I’m scared of getting older because obstacles keep coming up. I want my “shit to be together” earlier than it’s supposed to. The thought of getting older means the closer I need to be to having my life figured out. Ok, that obviously isn’t true but it’s an expectation I put on myself. I know it isn’t healthy, but it’s the way I’ve always been.
I’m hoping to spend the rest of my 20’s enjoying my youth and accepting age. No expectations, no limits, no fear. It won’t be easy at times, but I’m hoping to give it a genuine try.
Recently I turned a year older (ahhh so scary), and through out my 24 years of life I feel like I’ve learned plenty! Obviously I still have a lot to learn, but I’ve been through a lot in a just a few amount of years on this planet.
- Be a nice person.
- The friends you have now might not be in your life forever… life will go on!
- What you see on shows is not reality, so don’t expect your life to turn out like that.
- You don’t need to plan out your future before you’re even a teenager, despite what the adults in your life might say.
- Enjoy being young: it’s tempting to grow up fast, but just enjoy every age you are.
- Everyone’s life is different.
- Don’t try so hard to fit in. It’s a waste of time and what exactly is fitting in anyway??
- Try many things and see what you like. You might even find something you’re really good at.
- Be completely honest with your feelings, it can save your life.
- If someone in your life offers you to see a therapist… do it!!!
- You don’t HAVE to be good at school and if you aren’t, there isn’t anything wrong with you.
- Make mistakes!!!!
- A good work ethic can take you a long way.
- Saving your money is good, but doing things you love can be rewarding too.
- TRAVEL! Even by yourself! (I have a post about that).
- Don’t apply for too many credit cards at once…that’s no good for your score.
- Don’t live out of your means. If you have money to spend GREAT. If you don’t… just try not to max out your credit.
- Take the time to take care of your health (physical or mental).
- Similar to the last one… see a therapist! Even if you don’t have a reason to, see one!
- Try volunteering in many different fields so you know what you enjoy.
- At the end of the day nobody really cares when you do things.. if you know what I mean.
- You will have time for so much, so if you need to start over there is nothing wrong with that.
- At the end of the day all you have is yourself and your thoughts. Take care of yourself.
- Do what makes YOU happy.. even if that means dissapointing others along the way. This is your life, they have their own.
To be continued…
When I think of must see places in the USA, Nashville is easily on top of that list. Music, scenery, food, food , and FOOD makes for a perfect trip! After visiting this beautiful city twice and possibly moving there later this year, here is my must do not so touristy Nashville itinerary.
If you’re looking for that perfect postcard photo…. this is the spot. With multiple trails leading to the lake, this is such a beautiful hike. It is calm, relaxing, and everything you could want.
- Country Music Hall of Fame
I’m not one for doing touristy things while on vacation, but CMHF was actually really entertaining. Walking around to see all my favorite singers outfits, awards, and equipment was pretty cool!
Downtown Nashville not only has great food options, but SO MANY bars to choose from. With live music and friendly people everywhere you go, this is a must!
This small family owned business might have a long wait, but oh my is it worth it! Best place hands down for brunch that I’ve probably ever been to. Many options for food and all the employees are so genuinely nice!!! Definitely one of my favorite spots in Nashville.
Nashville wouldn’t be Nashville without The Loveless Cafe. This place has such great jam that you’ll even want to buy at the gift shop right across from it. There are so many options for barbecue and trust me when I say it doesn’t get better than the barbecue at Loveless.
- The Gaylord Opryland/ The Grand Ole Opry
I put these two together because they are near each other, so if you happen to be on that side of town it would be worth it to pay a visit. The Gaylord hotel is beautiful and another great place for pictures if you just want to stop by for a bit. Of course, the grand ole opry is a great experience for any country music fans. You even get to stand on the stage where country stars perform!
These are my stand out spots for those who might be visiting Nashville for the first time. Although, the food spots are really for anyone! 🙂
I don’t know if I completely believe in the “home is where the heart is” saying. After all, you don’t awlays choose your home. I believe that if there is another place that feels more like home than your actual one, it is worth giving it a chance. Maybe happiness can be found in a new location. Maybe you belong somewhere else and nobody, but you understands. Maybe you know what is best for yourself.
If you could just drop everything now and move to a place you know will make you happy, where would it be?
Last September I decided to go to Chicago for 4 days. Unfortunately, due to do the lovely traffic at my lovely city I missed my flight. I had to fly out the next day, but somehow I managed to fit in everything I wanted to do within those two days (flying out early morning on the 3rd day). I had booked two tours ahead of time as a must do.
First thing when I got there was a night time bike tour. I’m so glad I got this at night or else I definitely would not have made it in time. I took the train from the airport to my hotel and it took forever! So if money isn’t that big of a deal for you, it’s best to just Uber to your place.
If you are ever in Chicago, I highly suggest doing this bike tour! I struggled at first remembering how to control the damn bike , but I eventually got a hold of it! This city was perfect for this tour because it’s so beautiful day and night! We pretty much got to see the whole city with this one tour. It took us around to many different places and even to an amazing view by Michigan lake you will see below. The tour was around 2 hours long, so if you are only in Chicago for a short amount of time it’s perfect because it took two hours to see mostly everything I wanted to!
The Bean/Millenium Park
The oh so famous bean was only 15 minutes walking distance from my hotel so I decided to walk there the next morning. Walking around this city is great in the mornings because the architecture is so nice! It’s the perfect combination of big city/beach vibes. When I went to see the bean I also got a perfect opportunity for a photo. The photo I took is a panorama photo but it shows just how pretty the city is and why you should walk around it instead of drive everywhere.
I’m not going to lie, the last thing I am is a baseball fan. I grew up watching basketball, but when you’re in Chicago you can’t miss a cubs game at legendary Wrigley Field! The atmosphere around Wrigley was filled with great energy as the Cubs were doing so great last season. Besides being there to watch the game I heard that the hot dogs being served at Wrigley were a must eat… so I did! The reviews were so right because that hot dog was so so good!
Lake Michigan Tour!
After the bike tour I’m not sure if the Michigan Lake Tour was a must, but after hustling to get there and find the boat it was the perfect scene to just be. It was nice to sit back and relax. Loud music was playing, drinks were being served, and the view was beautiful with even a rainbow popping out for a visit. After the tour, I just hung out around the pier before heading off to the next destination.
Overall, my trip to Chicago was hectic and a bit tiring because of everything I had to crunch in from missing that flat! Although I’m really happy I got through everything I wanted to while I was there! I didn’t mention everything I did so that’s mainly why it was exhausting. I did put in the highlights and I’m sure if I just stuck to this list it would’ve been much more laid back! Nonetheless I had a blast and did not think I would’ve liked the city as much as I did. I would definitely revisit at some point!
My plan at first was to get a job or two and move out of my parents house finally! Now, I’ve realized that even if I did move out I would feel unhappy still. A couple of years ago I had my heart set on moving far away from home.
I live in Southern California and even though I love certain places here; I don’t see myself here forever. My mood has been all over the place and I think it’s because I want a more simple life. Somewhere calm, genuine, and comforting that I can call home.
I feel like while I’m young and have the time to be selfish, I should venture out and try new things.
Ive decided that I’m going to get a second job this summer and pay off bills/save money so I can finally get out of this city and move somewhere that I would feel comfortable at. I’m excited yet hesitant because I’m hoping nothing will keep me here. I’ll just be here crossing my fingers!!
Almost 3 years ago for my 21st birthday week I decided to go to NYC… alone. I mentioned this in another post, but traveling on my own I gained some valuable travel tips. Here’s my experience of the Big Apple.
I was never the girl who dreamed of going to NYC. I honestly think I just chose to go there because it had to be a must see place. Once I landed it felt surreal that I was actually there. Because I was alone I made sure to get a hotel that provided an airport shuttle for my midnight landing. My hotel was cheap and gross but it was the best I could do by myself in one of the most expensive cities where every hotel room is the size of my closet (not big). It was a hotel by Central Park and it was actually in a pretty nice area. Key points so far:
- Get a hotel with a shuttle if no Uber
- If you’re getting a cheap hotel at least get it in a decent area
Before my trip I got a 3 day pass for the double decker busses because I mean how could you not do that. After hearing the tour already I stopped using those headphones they give and just used the bus as a form of transportation. It literally goes around everywhere so if you have a budget it works great because you don’t pay for every ride. I took multiple rides a day!
- Some must do touristy attractions are worth it
- Double decker are a great form of transportation
With my ride from the double decker I stopped by Little Italy to try some pizza explore. The great thing about NYC is that eating alone is completely normal! The majority of people I saw were usually alone. It was definitely fast paced and although it wasn’t my cup of tea at least I didn’t have to feel so out of place. Along with the pizza I tried a street dog near Central Park and actually got a panini from this really tasty deli by my hotel. Because my flight got delayed long story short I had to crunch everything into a short amount of time and would forget to eat. So I’ve noted that next time I go I have to explore the food scene more!
- Dont forget to eat
- Don’t hype up the “must eat” foods in your head too much
Along with Central Park and Little Italy I made sure I went to see Lady Liberty! That was probably my favorite part of the trip because I finally had some time to just chill and enjoy the view of NYC and Jersey. I would highly recommend that as it really was a beautiful view! My last stop was Times Square even though I spent time there all throughout the trip. This time it was to shop for souvenirs! I spent so much time there it got late and my only form of transportation was the subway. I knew I had to try it at least once while I was there. The subway system in NYC is super easy and I well thought out, so I had no trouble at all.
- Go see the Statue of Liberty
- Subway isn’t so bad and scary
From my walks in Central Park to the traffic I would sit through. My trip was jam packed and here’s my honest opinion. The hustle and bustle of the city wasn’t exactly my thing. I come from a hectic and busy city, but I’m the type of person who wants to sit back, relax, and live instead of being on the run all the time. To tell you the truth New York wasn’t my thing and I was ready to say goodbye. I probably will go back again in the future, but at least I got to experience it alone!
If there is anything I’ve learned about having a journal, it is that writing is VERY therapeutic. Most people think of teenage girls keeping secrets from their parents when a journal is mentioned. I happen to think of venting all of life’s “headache” problems out and allowing a peace of mind.
I started keeping a journal during the painful times of my eating disorder. It was a way for me to journal what I was eating because I had to see it on paper in order for me to identify that I had a problem. Now, I think my journal is great for writing down when I feel a certain way so that I can later go back and figure out why or what made me feel that way. With everything that is happening contstantly it can be my way of storing memories. Remember, you are never too old to keep a journal.
*DREAM. SPARKLE. SHINE*
(journal is from Nordstrom Rack)