Recovery: …

“How did it get this bad?” This was the first thing I asked myself when I was sitting on the floor crying my eyes out. This was also the time I realized I had it rock bottom. 

A few months ago I got diagnosed with an eating disorder that I apparently had for 10 years. Along with an eating disorder I have OCD which….let’s face it, feels like hell sometimes. After I was diagnosed with my eating disorder a lot of things in my life started making sense. It was almost like there were reasons for things, yet no reason for why I got stuck with these mental illnesses. 

I decided to really look after myself and start taking everything more seriously. I started taking care of my body and respecting. I knew I couldn’t carry on the way I was going because I was just not the best person to be around. All I knew was that I didn’t want to be angry anymore. I needed some normalcy back. 

At this point in my life I’m definitely not where I would like to be. Mentally and physically I am still struggling with a lot. However; when I think about that night when I had hit rock bottom, all I know is that I am so glad I’m not there anymore. Of course there are still pictures that make me cringe and days where I feel like my head is about to explode, but at least I am alive. 
Step by step, day by day.

Xoxo Suzy

Quote I’ve been liking: “Yes, it is all in my head… that’s where my brain is.”

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2 thoughts on “Recovery: …

  1. inspirationaltracey says:

    Power lies in the tongue. You are what you tell yourself. I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism and borderline personality disorder 2 years ago. I took less for maybe a month. I stopped, and I quit my job. And I’m healthier than ever. It was all stress.

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