Eating disorders are MORE than just a NUMBER.

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*There may be some sensitive content for some viewers. Information/details on eating disorders.*

I dealt with an eating disorder for 10 years. Most of the time I had disordered eating patterns, but all of the time I had body image issues. I know people who haven’t experienced an eating disorder or recovery may think that it all just revolves around the number. The more weight you lose the worse your disorder actually is. In fact, this is why I didn’t think I had an eating disorder until my 10th year of dealing with it. I’m glad there is more talk on mental health so I would like to just touch up on some things that may come along with an eating disorder.

  • It is a mental health issue: This isn’t just a physical problem. There is a chemical imbalance in ones brain which causes them to think and feel different. Of course this then can lead to physical problems. Some of which include an unhealthy weight, poor dental hygiene, bone issues, heart issues, and etc.
    • Body dysmorphia is part of an eating disorder: The way one thinks about themselves is very important to identifying an eating disorder. I personally pictured myself very different in my head compared to how I really looked in person. It can also be an obsession with physical experience that can take up most of a persons time.
    • There are many different types of an eating disorder: Speaking from my own experience, I had binge eating disorder. What this meant is that I would spend days not eating full meals and then decided to eating everything in site in one day. Along with this I had obsessive thoughts about my appearance.
    • You don’t have to be at a certain weight to have an eating disorder: Everybody’s body is different. This means everyone will have a healthy body weight that may not be the same as the person next to them. My weight fluctuated a lot, but I was never really thin or really overweight. I looked healthy so I thought I was. This is what I meant by it being a mental illness. Just because someone doesn’t look sick doesn’t mean they aren’t.

    I hope this gives a little insight on eating disorders. Please feel free to share your own thoughts or anything I might’ve left out in the comments below. If you or anyone you know might be suffering with an eating disorder, check out the website below for some more information:

    National Eating Disorders Association

    Thank you for reading,

    Suzy [fragile, yet fearless]

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    Thoughts on turning 25!

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    A while ago I wrote a blog post about my fear of getting older. It stemmed from a need to have my life together and not struggling to make ends meet. Turns out the 20’s aren’t “old”. It’s just the constant struggle of how to act, what age to act, and when to act a certain way. As anyone else, I’ve gone through a lot of changes this past year.

    A couple of days ago I turned 25 and now I see aging in a completely different light… well, sort of. Instead of fearing it, lately I’ve been excited to get older. Some of this still comes from the pressure of needing to have it all together. I’m hoping in 10 years I will be a lot more comfortable than I am now. You know, having a career and living in a city I love. I’ve decided to accept the 20’s for what they are. A learning period of mistakes, realizations, and understanding the what I want out of life. I don’t mean what I want to do or when I want to settle down. I mean doing things I love without second guessing myself. Crying when I want to cry, laughing when I want to laugh, and ignoring the voice in my head that tells me otherwise. It’s like a constant battle in my head with negative judgment. After moving and coming back home I’ve realized that things aren’t going to be easy. I need to push myself to allow myself to struggle because ultimately that’s how I will learn. Especially with all the health issues I’ve had to deal with, I know now I just need to GO FOR IT. Sometimes I might fall but at least I won’t have to be wondering what if.

    So whoever is reading this, embrace where you are now in life. Don’t worry about things that haven’t even happened yet. There is a reason why people tell you to not compare your life with anyone else’s.

    Thanks for stopping by,

    Suzy [fragile, yet fearless]

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    Here are 5 Affirmations to help you get through the day…

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    If you’ve seen previous blog posts of mine, you know I’ve had my fair share of mental and physical illnesses. One thing that helps me are affirmations to remind me to accept myself and encourage me to keep fighting. If you don’t know what an affirmation is, it is a saying that offers emotional support. I used to use affirmations as my phone wallpaper so I could see it anytime I grabbed my phone. Another way to support yourself with affirmations is to tape them on your mirror or wall, so you will see them often. If you need some positive affirmations to lift you up; I have provided 5 that I personally find useful.


    I let go of all the lies I tell myself.Be patient with yourselfI am enough.I am doing the best that I can and that is enough.I forgive myself.


    If you have any affirmations you’d like to share, please comment them below!



    Thanks for reading,


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    I’m Back Home After “Attempting” To Move Out.


    The past few years (before this blog) I have been going on and on about moving to Nashville. A couple of weeks ago I made the BIG move. Unfortunately, it didn’t go the way I had planned. I wrote this blog post while I was there and kind of touched on my frustrations. Coming from a cultural background where moving out is not a thing unless you are getting married, I really didn’t know much about what it is actually like. There is nothing I regret about giving moving a try because there is a lot that I realized. I am currently home for about a month because there are a few things I need to sort out before I make the move again. As much as I love Nashville, it might not be the place for me at this point in my life. Do I see myself buying a house there when I’m ready to settle down? I think so, but for now I’m ready to put other things first.

    The 20’s are a time to be adventourous and make stupid mistakes without having too many priorities. My dream is to one day open up my own gymnastics facility, but to have my own business I wouldn’t have the freedom to move or travel as much. This is why now is my time to explore that side of life.

    What I realized:

    I would rather have a financially stable job right now and give a new city a try than live in the city if my dreams paycheck to paycheck.

    Since I was a teen I’ve always put my goals for my career first (partly because of my ocd). I guess not much has changed about that. Before I moved I was willing to settle for a job that maybe didn’t pay so much, but as long as I was in my favorite city everything would be alright. It turns out if I can’t make enough to explore and do all the things I love in that city, than what is the point?

    All in all maybe this wasn’t the right time for me to move to Nashville, but I’m not giving up on moving. I’ve already applied to some other cities and am looking forward to my next adventure.

    Have you had any unexpected experiences when moving away?

    Thanks for stopping by,

    Suzy [fragile, yet fearless]

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    These really DON’T matter in adulthood.


    As a teenager or young adult a lot of us think that whatever we decide or do now is going to live on with us forever! Growing up, I’ve realized that this in fact is NOT true. I spent many days stressing over things that honestly weren’t and still aren’t a big deal. Maybe it’s getting more comfortable with who I am or maybe people just become a lot more sensible in adulthood (one can hope).  If you are a teen reading this, I want to ease you with some of the things you might be going through. The truth of the matter is that whatever you are going through you probably won’t even remember a couple years from now. Don’t worry, I’m here to make life a bit easier for you and let you know there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Trust me, these don’t and shouldn’t matter!

    1. How many social gatherings you attend: This does not determine your cool factor.
    2. What “click” you should hangout with: Majority of people don’t really stay friends.
    3. How much you spend on materialistic items: Oh trust me, life gets more expensive.
    4. Planning your elaborate future: Trust me when I say… nobody’s life will go exactly as planned.
    5. WHEN you have your first kiss or lose your virginity: Nobody is comparing numbers in adulthood. If they are, they have some serious growing up to do. Take your time and do things as you want to. Years from now if all is done, you’ll realize how big of a deal it isn’t and life just goes on. Trust me, you’re not missing out on anything (and my nickname was “prude” in high school)… I know what it’s like to be on both sides of things.

    The truth is everything comes with happiness. You’ll realize how little these things in life really are when you find your inner peace. You will start enjoying your life so much more that you won’t need a stamp of approval or reassurance for any of it. Of course, this all comes in time. Be patient with yourself…always.

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    Seattle Trip Round-Up!


    In March I took a trip to Seattle for the first time. This was also the first time in a while that I went on a trip alone. Here’s how it went:

    I got to Seattle at night, so the next day I got up early and walked to the Columbia Center. I also happened to walk 69 steps up the Columbia Center to raise awareness and funds for the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society…that’s actually why I was in Seattle.

    This was my view from the top!

    Here I am with team captain and youtuber, Monica Church. She’s the reason I found out about The Big Climb. Monica did the climb last year and made vlogs of her training. She is really talented and her videos can really relate to you if you are a fellow millenial.

    (She also has a main channel)

    My hostel was by the Pike Place Market, so I walked by it a couple of times.

    I met some awesome people through the climb who are from all over the USA.

    We ate at Joey Kitchen…yes, it was delicious!

    Saw this lovely guitar piece of art at the Pop Culture Museum!

    Managed to get a picture of the Space Needle along with some other buildings.

    This was my view from where I took that picture of the Space Needle. It is also where I had a peaceful setting to write this blog post.


    Seattle was great and I’m glad I got to visit there at last. The climb was an amazing experience that I will talk about for a long time. It makes me feel good that I did something nice for a GREAT cause. I will definitely be back at it again next year.


    Happy Weekend,

    Suzy [fragile, yet fearless]

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    How to find the job you WANT!

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    Give it up for adulthood everyone! If you’re looking for a new job or just graduated and need to get that money flowing… flowing? who says that. Also, with all the bills in this world that isn’t too easy. Anyways, I’ve got some tips that have helped me on my job search. I haven’t mentioned what I do on here, but I am a gymnastics coach. I have been coaching for many years so when it comes to my job, I’ve had some good luck based on my experience. However, I’ve had other jobs as well with little experience so I’ve gone through the job search ordeal as well. Here are a few things to get you started.

    1. Create and upload your resume on a job search engine: My go to and one of the most popular sites is Indeed. If you upload your resume, employers will be able to search for what they are looking for and you might just pop up! It makes it much easier if you are too busy to search and apply for jobs during the day. Don’t worry, they do block out personal information like your address. A more professional job search engine would be LinkedIn.This is like a professional profile you can make and connect with those in the industry you desire.
    2. Gain some EXPERIENCE: I decided a while back that school wasn’t for me. Of course depending on the route you want to take in life, school might be something you NEED for your future. Regardless, experience in your career preference is what most employers are looking for. This means you might have to settle with working for free. Volunteering is one way to gain that experience. There are so many places that offer volunteer hours now. You can even volunteer to do admin work with a company you might see yourself having a future with. Here is one website you can search opportunities on. If you are in school, try interning! Ask your professors if they recommend any internships or if they need help with anything in that field themselves.
    3. Network: This isn’t always easy and might seem a bit intimidating. Networking is one way to not only meet people in your industry, but gain knowledge from their path. Try to attend events within your field and don’t be afraid to mingle. Ask questions and find out if this really is something you want to pursue.
    4. Search online for some tips! Just like you are doing right now by reading this post, there are so many people willing to offer a helping hand. If you are interested in a few career paths, try searching on youtube for people who are in that industry. There are so many videos that give you an honest behind the scenes of what it takes to “make it”. It will be one way for you to test out if you should be continuing your current career choice.
    5. Be open to change: I’m sure by now you have heard that you’ve got to start from somewhere. Be flexible with your jobs and be willing to wear different hats. For example, I’ve been open to work at day cares and do admin work while coaching. This gives me more child care experience in a different environment, AND administrative experience that I can use in a different industry if willing. Don’t be afraid of change and remember that all good things do actually take time.

    Best of luck to you on your job search. Remember to be patient with yourself. Everybody’s life is different so don’t compare yours with those around you.


    Have a great week,

    Suzy [fragile, yet fearless]

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    10 Gift Ideas For Every Occasion!

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    One thing to know about me is that I am obsessed with gift giving! The whole process of getting creative and searching for the perfect gift excites me. Usually we find ourselves giving gifts to the same people each year, so I found some ways to make gift giving a bit more interesting. I try to get gifts for people that mean something. For example, getting a gift relatable to a shared interest I have with a friend. If I have a friend who is obsessed with country music like I am then I get song lyrics printed on a shirt. Not only would my friend like the gift, but it’s more sentimental because it isn’t something I could give to everyone. My love for gifting has given me the drive to write this post. If you’d like some more ideas….keep scrolling.

    1. Concert/Event Tickets: Definitely my most favorite gift to give and the MOST memorable.
    2. Booking Activities: A day of horseback riding or wine and paint. Quality time can be a gift within itself.
    3. Pamper, Pamper, Pamper: Life is busy so a nice day at a spa can be much needed.
    4. Personalized Item: Like I mentioned above…a shirt with a favorite quote or lyric, a mug with an inside joke on it, and even some nice jewelry. Etsy can be GREAT!
    5. Beneficial Gifts: Is your friend moving or getting a new car? Get something that will help them out (even if that means a gift card to homegoods).
    6. DIY: When all else fails, do it yourself. A beautiful photo collage has the potential to bring tears to ones eyes. Here is an example from fellow blogger, Talia!
    7. Splurge on a trip: If you’re looking for an impressive gift for a big occasion, a trip away can be the thing for you. Again, life get’s busy and a break can be useful.
    8. Enroll in a class: Similar to activities, but think of what your friend is interested in and get them a class that can help. (ex: baking, pottery, instruments, & etc.)
    9. Surprises: Not everyone likes surprise parties, but if you surprised your friend at work to take them out to lunch, I’m sure they won’t mind. Deliveries are always nice too!
    10. Small goodies: A lot of a little is another favorite. What I mean is getting many small gifts that your friend likes. I’ve done car scents, candles, body sprays, and a gift card to their favorite coffee shop for example. All useful and can show how much you really know your friend.

    I hope this was helpful if you made it this far. Let me know if you have any ideas you’d like to add on!

    Best Wishes,

    Suzy [fragile, yet fearless]

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    How To Get Motivated In The Morning!

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    In my past blog  post I wrote about spending all day in bed and not feeling guilty about it. This week I had time to rest, but decided I’m going to put in some extra effort to break ties with my bed. If I’m having an decent health day, these are the things that work best for me:

    Copy of Pastel Pink Floral Border Personal Planner

    • Morning Shower: There is nothing like coming out fresh and clean out of the shower, ready to take on the world. It almost makes you feel like you have your life together.


    • Doing my hair and makeup: I personally enjoy spending time on my makeup, but not so much the hair. When I randomly decide to get all done up, I feel like I should be doing or going somewhere… and eventually I do.


    • Getting out…even if that means in your pj’s: What I mean with this one is getting out to run a home errand, like taking out the trash. It gets you up and once I’m up it’s hard to get back in bed. One thing I realized that helps me is taking my dog for a walk. If you’re still having trouble, set yourself up the night before with a task you MUST complete in the morning (ex: parking on the wrong side of the street, so you need to get up and move your car for street cleaning.)


    • Give yourself something to look forward to: This can be a certain breakfast item you can’t wait to eat or an appointment you made to pamper yourself! I usually make y appointments early on purpose so I get my day started early!


    Of course, it’s not the end of the world if you’re not a morning person. Hopefully you found something here that might help if you need to be up early.


    Best of Luck,

    Suzy [fragile, yet fearless]

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