Culture+Mental Illness: Does it affect it?

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Culture is an interesting thing. You see we don’t really have a choice of what culture we are raised in. Although, you must be proud and celebrate your culture despite possibly having different beliefs.

My culture is based around a lot of conservative beliefs. I myself grew up with these beliefs because it was “right”. Really, it was all I knew to be right. Being a 25 year old now, I’m more than capable of having my own mind. I believe that you can respect your culture without believing everything you’re told you have to.

I believe in love for everyone.

I believe that your gender doesn’t matter.

I believe that every color and background deserves equal treatment.

I believe that mental health is real.

I believe that living your life way you want to doesn’t make you a bad person.

I believe that it isn’t in your head.

I believe that you can feel whatever you want to.

I believe that you can choose your own life.

The times I’ve been called names or had eyes be rolled at me because I thought different is ridiculous. This is mainly why I say what’s on my mind. If others have the nerve to say all those things to my face, than I have the power to fight back with the truth.

This is why I am living my life for me. 

It’s not too late to sign up to vote in some states. Let your voice be heard for those who can’t share theirs.

Happy Weekend,

Suzy [fragile, yet fearless]

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Dysautonomia Awareness Month: What it’s like to have a chronic illness.

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I’m sure a lot of people don’t know what dysautonomia is. I didn’t know what it was until I got diagnosed with it less than a year ago. Turns out October is dysautonomia awareness month, so it seems like the right time to explain it. Dysautonomia is a nervous system disorder. My body is pretty much malfunctioning to sum it up. The things it should be able to do naturally, it no longer is able to do. The thing is… I had these symptoms for such a long time and had no idea what was happening to me, I just knew something was wrong. Of course, I looked everything up online and all these different disorders would come up that had similar symptoms. However, dysautonomia never came up. This is why I think now is a good time to get a word out. Maybe someone who has these symptoms will look it up and find this post. Dysautonomia has various branches to it. I have a form called Postural Orthostatic Tachychardia Syndrome, or POTS. Here’s a run down of everything I personally dealt with:

  • Blurred vision when standing up
  • Difficulty climbing stairs
  • Nausea
  • Rapid heart rate
  • Blood pressure lowering upon standing
  • Numbness in hands/Pins and needles
  • Chronic fatigue
  • Brain fog
  • Added adrenaline (short tempered)
  • Joint pain

*Symptom related to POTS that I have not felt: fainting*

Unfortunately, it takes many appointments with different doctors to FINALLY get a diagnosis. This is due to how little people are educated on dysautonomia. The best types of doctors for this are cardiologists and neurologists. Even then, it might be a while until you get a diagnosis. Now, I take different types of medication to keep all my symptoms from flaring up. I’m glad that there is more research being done, so I hope one day I can remember what it felt like to live my life before this chronic illness.

Click here for more information on DYSAUTONOMIA.

Take care of yourself,

Suzy [fragile, yet fearless]

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Here are 5 Affirmations to help you get through the day…

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If you’ve seen previous blog posts of mine, you know I’ve had my fair share of mental and physical illnesses. One thing that helps me are affirmations to remind me to accept myself and encourage me to keep fighting. If you don’t know what an affirmation is, it is a saying that offers emotional support. I used to use affirmations as my phone wallpaper so I could see it anytime I grabbed my phone. Another way to support yourself with affirmations is to tape them on your mirror or wall, so you will see them often. If you need some positive affirmations to lift you up; I have provided 5 that I personally find useful.


I let go of all the lies I tell myself.Be patient with yourselfI am enough.I am doing the best that I can and that is enough.I forgive myself.


If you have any affirmations you’d like to share, please comment them below!



Thanks for reading,


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An Invisible Illness.

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Dysautonomia: An umbrella term used to describe several different medical conditions that cause a malfunction of the Autonomic Nervous System.

Almost two years ago I noticed a big change in my health. The smallest everyday things became the hardest. Going up the stairs in my house was exhausting and standing up made everything around me go blank. There were a lot of times I thought I was going to faint. Along with that came many more strange symptoms. My hands were feeling nub and felt like pins and needles. A few months later my heart was racing so fast to the point that I was feeling nauseous. I made two trip to the ER in a couple of weeks and they put an IV in me in. Not knowing what was wrong I went to a cardiologist who had me wear a heart monitor. He noticed my heart was racing throughout the whole day and put me on medication for it to slow down. Although nobody could tell me what was wrong I knew something wasn’t right. I went to several different doctors this past year to try to get to the bottom of it. My blood work kept coming back normal which made it even harder to get a diagnosis. All i did was look up my symptoms online to see if I can try to get to the bottom of it since nothing was helping. It was a little scary to think of all the thing it might be.

A few months ago I went to a rheumatologist who then referred me to a neurologist. At last there was a name to go with all the symptoms had been feeling…. dysautonomia. I had never heard of this and it never came up during my internet searches. I have the form of dysautonomia called POTS. This means I have a fast heart rate and my blood pressure drops when I stand up. So pretty much I have a lot of adrenaline in me and my body is just trying to catch up. See, the autonomic nervous system controls all the things your body does naturally. Like adjusting to temperature change, your heart pumping faster when you’re exercising, and so on. You know, the things you don’t have to think about. My body however, no longer knows how to control all of that. As much as I hate that I have this, finally having a name for all of this has given me a sense of relief.

Trying to figure all of this out was really stressful. I saw so many doctors and nobody knew what was going on. This doesn’t mean they were bad, but they just couldn’t put it all together. Plus, insurance is a whole other story. Trying to get approval to have some tests done can be a nightmare. I’m just glad that I relied on my gut feeling to keep me searching for the answer to this. I guess the reason I’m writing this blog post isn’t to just inform people on dysautonomia, but it is to let me know that following your instinct as oppose to listening to other doesn’t make your symptoms less valid. You know your body better than anyone else. There are going to be people telling you it’s all in your head, but don’t listen and keep moving forward.

To anyone who has an “invisible illness” or any sort of illness… You are already so strong for putting up with it, and your story is VALID.

Wishing you a GREAT week,
Suzy [fragile, yet fearless]

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