I moved back and stopped comparing myself to others.

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This past summer I wrote about moving out of state and moving back (twice). Moving back because I felt like I was rushing and not as financially stable as I could’ve been.

A lot of it is comparing myself to other 25 year olds and thinking:

“If I don’t do this, how am I an adult.”

“Why is my life going at such a slow pace?”

And then reality hit and I realized if I have to come home for another year just so I can have a positive experience next time around, I’m up for it.

This mean I had to be willing to work and work some more. Stop caring where I am career wise or geographically. It’s funny because everyone my age feels this way too. Yet, we still compare ourselves to each other!

After coming home, relapsing from an ED (which I also talked about), and trying to live a life that is not mine, I’ve learned to be more present. How? By taking a break from social media! I was never invested in my Instagram or Snapchat, but I did look at what others post. This meant looking at their “happy” “thought out” lives. It turns out I actually don’t care anymore. I’m just not all for the perfect filter and 20 minute photo shoot with my coffee, so people can think I’m happy thing. I’d rather post reality.

It’s so nice to be able to just live my life and not know what other are doing unless I really care. Which then I’m texting and calling those people, so I don’t need to check their feed.

Another thing that has helped me stay present has been staying busy (in a good way). Not the type of busy where you try to avoid all your problems. The type of busy where I’m taking care of myself. I’ve been working a lot which will be beneficial to moving again. This makes me happy because it makes it more realistic that I’ll have a chance to be on my own. Another helpful way of staying busy has been working out. I have been trying to workout at least 3 times a week and it has made my mood a lot better. It has also provided me with a lot of energy to get through the days.

Trying to live in the moment can almost seem like a chore at times. The truth is it shouldn’t be like that. Life is tough so we would rather block out the negatives, but that doesn’t do us any good. We need to make moves to change the things we don’t like around. Be patient and eventually it will be so natural that you won’t even remember what life was like when you cared so much about what others were doing.

Happy Almost Thanksgiving!

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Los Angeles travel guide from an LA native! 

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Hello! My name’s Suzy and I will be your tour guide today. Born and raised in Los Angeles, I’ve got a few places for you to try. Have a look:

 

Hiking: Fern Dell

The Fern Dell hike is the perfect one for any newcomers to the city. It isn’t that difficult and the best part is that it takes you to the griffith observatory. From there you will see great views of every part of the city.

Urth Caffe: You’ve probably seen a bunch of pictures of this place. Urth is very hyped, but it is definitely worth it. My favorites are the margherita pizza and turkey panini. They have great ice blended coffee’s called granita.

Griffith Observatory: As mentioned earlier, the Griffith Observatory has great views, especially at night. Just look at the picture I took!

Beaches: You can’t go to LA without stopping by the beach. My favorite beach is Malibu State Beach. The beaches here can get quite dirty, but this one is clean and the sand is close to the water. Santa Monica includes a long walk to the water, but it is a nice place to go at night, as it has the pier with rides!

The Americana or The Grove: Outdoor shopping is LA’s specialty. These two places are essentially the same experience. Depending on where in LA you are staying will help you decide which one to go to. Affordable/High end shopping plus great food options!

 

I don’t have a picture of these places, but The Americana does have one of my other favorite places to eat, Lemonade. It is like a cafeteria setting, but with really good food. It’s a pretty “LA” place, but the Lemonade is pretty delicious! My favorite is blood orange.

 

 

BONUS:

*Transportation Tips*: LA is definitely not known for it’s public transportation. If you are coming here make sure to rent a car or rely on uber. Make sure you plan ahead of time to get to your destination, the traffic is no joke. Hours to watch out for are morning work commute and 4pm-7pm.

 

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Safe Travels,

Suzy [fragile, yet fearless]

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Moves I’m making to help find myself.

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5 stars for the cheese worthy title? If you’ve been following my blog posts and really if you’re human, you know life is up and down. This past year I moved away, came back home, moved away again, and came back home again. I’m in my 20’s, so you can imagine it’s a difficult time of trying to find out where I’m supposed to be in life. In the past making stupid decisions has been my way of life. It’s kind of sad actually. Losing yourself is difficult. Being so sure of who you are and then completely losing track of that is one big obstacle.

In the midst of all of this there was one big thing missing in my life…love. I stopped loving myself. Actually the last time I truly loved myself I was too young to remember. You know what not loving yourself does? It causes you to search for acceptance elsewhere. Because I couldn’t love myself I tried to find that through other things. Hooking up, partying, and social drinking to avoid my problems. This makes it sound more dramatic, but it’s the truth. Even if I wasn’t a party animal, even doing it occasionally for the wrong reason was a bad idea.

There is no regret in any of the choices I made because I’ve learned from them. In fact I’ve had to fall down several times to finally be at the place I am now. Which is surrender and stop putting up with all of that (excuse my French) shit! It took relapsing from my eating disorder and getting back on a routine to wake up.

I started working out 3 times a week because it helps me stress less and take care of myself.

I go to a support group each week and make appointments to see my therapist.

Most importantly I talk positively to myself which allows me to put myself first.

No more trying to find what I’m missing elsewhere. The only person who I need right now is me. I can’t expect someone to love or accept me because I can’t, that is my job.

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Have a GREAT weekend!

Suzy [fragile, yet fearless]

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Why I moved back home…AGAIN.

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Somehow I’m always back here again. I’ve written a couple of blog posts about moving out of state, coming back, and moving out again. In this one I am explaining why I am back.

This time a longer temporary move back home. The plan is to be here for another year and then officially move out FOR GOOD. After the last couple of tries, I am dedicated to make it happen in this next chapter.

Moving out of state was hard. Knowing absolutely no one and trying to make ends meet. The first time, I freaked out. Reality set in and I was really hard on myself. I cried for days and decided it was rushed. Moving back, I thought I would give other locations a try. My heart kept telling me Nashville was the place I needed to be. After spending a couple of months back home I decided to give it another go. Let’s just say finances weren’t on my side and I needed to make a realistic decision.

After working for a week and expecting to make it okay. I started to think about my future. By future, I meant my 30’s. The truth is I didn’t want to be a 30 year old in debt from credit cards that I spent too much on. Staying in Nashville meant using my credit the first couple of months as I had not saved up enough. Although I was desperate to move out due to a rocky home life, it wasn’t the best timing. I thought if I could live rent free for another year and pay off some debt, why not?

Almost two months later from returning and I’ve realized some old habits have come back to haunt me. Being home and just in this city in general gets me in a bad mood. I get angry a lot and have been feeling that sense of fight or flight again. This has made me take extra measures to stay away from old behaviors. Having the ability to take care of myself helps quite a bit. If I had to work all day to pay rent I know I wouldn’t have that chance.

Being at home isn’t the easiest, but it is the best thing for me at this point in my life. I think it’s important to stop comparing myself to others and just do what’s best for my future and PRESENT. That was the hardest thing to accept during this whole process.

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Thanks for sticking around,

Suzy [fragile, yet fearless]

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Simple tips for domestic flights!

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The only good thing about flying red eye is this picture I got of the sunset.

Hello, everyone! Welcome to another day and another travel post from me. To tell you the truth, I actually enjoy flying. Am I the only one? After my summer that consisted of me constantly in the air, I thought I would give a run down of my favorite U.S. airlines!

Did you know you can be part of a member points program for free? Obviously you need to buy flight tickets to get points, but you don’t need to get the credit cards they are always offering! Because of this I am a member of 3 of my favorite airlines mentioned below:

3. Southwest Airlines

Southwest takes my number 3 spot due to the amount of flights it offers and the affordibility! It is a great quick getaway airline. You don’t get to choose your seats ahead of time, but check in early and you can choose a great seat when you board. Another perk, you can change your flight for FREE! Trust me, this comes in handy.

2. Alaska Airlines

Alaska is one of the comfortable airlines. You never have to worry about being squished between people with them. The great thing about Alaska is that it is usually really clean and nice inside. I once sat on a 30 minute flight and was on an aircraft with individual TV screens. It was great! Even without, they are a great airline.

1. JetBlue

Taking the number one spot to be JetBlue. It is definitely the more luxurious option from the other two I mentioned. Inside is spacious and clean! The only downside to JetBlue is that it is more of an east coast airline, so some can’t always enjoy the benefits of this airline.

Let me know if you have a favorite airline not mentioned above!

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Safe Travels,

Suzy [fragile, yet fearless]

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More travel tips (for beginners)!

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Hello everyone reading this 🙂

If you’re new here, I have a thing for traveling. Lately I even tried to move to another state…oh and I’m still attempting to move. The truth is no matter how many times you spend packing your bags or at the airport, there is always something new you learn. Here are a few things I’ve picked up these past years.

  1. Checked Bags: As far as domestic flights go, Southwest is the only airline that will allow two FREE checked bags. However, if you are alone and plan on having more bags, it is $75 for the third so you just end up paying the same as another airline.
  2. Frequent Flyer Points: I never knew how simple it was to join a frequent flyer program. I have accounts with both Southwest and Alaska Airlines for FREE. This isn’t the same as a credit card, but I do still get points each time I fly with them. Yes, you can get points from Expedia purchases as well.
  3. Download Your Airlines App: Every airline has an app these days so make sure you have it before you take off. This makes it easier as you can not only have flight information sent to you in case something changes, but you can also check in when the time comes!
  4. Check Your Bags In On Time: I actually didn’t know this because I rarely check bags, but arrive AT LEAST 45 minutes before boarding to check your bags in. I was running late one time and checked my bags in 30 minutes prior to boarding and has a risk of getting them late. Fortunately, it worked out fine this time!
  5. Print Your Boarding Pass: We live in a time where everything is done electronically. As great as it is to have your boarding pass on your phone, I think it is still important to print it as well. Technology lets us down and sometimes we might let ourselves down and drop our phones. Just be safe and have an extra form of a boarding pass on hand.

Have fun on your next adventure! Let me know if you are going on any trip this summer in the comments below!!!

-Suzy [fragile, yet fearless]

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What Those With Mental Illnesses Want You to Know.

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It’s crazy to even have to say this. In a world where some mental and physical illnesses are being ignored, it is so important to get the word out there about serious conditions. It just doesn’t seem fair to stay quiet because of what other people will think or because a subject is taboo. The only way to start accepting things and taking them seriously is by talking about them. By listening and showing compassion. No stranger to mental disorders, I’ve decided to write this post. I’m not ONLY writing this for others struggling, but for people who know someone with an illness and aren’t sure how to react. Here are a few things we’d like you to know.

  1. I don’t want you to relate, I want you to listen.

  2. I’m not expecting sympathy, I’m just tired of being looked at like I’m making it up.

  3. It’s not all in my head. It feels like I’ve lost control of everything.

  4. What I have is a health condition. There is a lot of science that backs it up. I cannot help the chemical imbalances in my brain.

  5. I DO NOT WANT THIS FOR MYSELF. Please, don’t tell me I’m making it up because I WANT something to be wrong with me

I guess everyone deals with mental disorders a bit different. It’s really hard to express yourself when nobody believes you. We understand that you don’t really know how someone feels unless you are in their shoes. This doesn’t mean you can’t just listen and accept the situation for what it is. It was hard for me to accept this at first too, but when I realized there’s nothing I can do to go back and change it… that’s when I knew it was real. Despite the frustration and confusion, I do not and will not ever wish a mental disorder on even my worst enemy.

Thank you for reading,

Suzy [fragile, yet fearless]

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Travel Tips/Apps I like to use.

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If you’ve seen my other blog posts you probably can tell I love to travel. The first time I went traveling on my own I did A LOT of research because it was also my first time booking things on my own. Feel free to look back at my post about traveling on your own. After comparing prices and trying many different websites, here are the things I feel like are the most helpful.

Booking Hotels: 

I love using the app for Expedia when planning a trip. I highly recommend becoming a member as you get point for hotels, flights, and things you book through Expedia. Getting points has allowed me to not only get discounts on hotels, but get a free room as well. The reason I think you should get the app rather then looking directly on the website is because Expedia will give mobile discounts sometimes which can be helpful if you are on a tight budget.

If the hotel route gets a bit pricey, staying at an Airbnb is a great choice as well. It is usually more affordable than a hotel and you get discount if you book for a week or month. The great thing about airbnb’s is that you can have a whole apartment to yourself. This is pretty useful for a long trip as you’ll have a kitchen to use and get more of a home vibe.

Booking Flights:

When booking flights it is always a good idea to compare rates on various apps. Sometime Priceline will have a better rate and sometime Expedia will. Most of the time they have the same rate, but it’s always nice to try. Booking directly through an airline is almost always more expensive. Again, if you use Expedia you can get points for the flight. You can then become a member of the airline and gain points even if you didn’t purchase directly through them. Fun little fact: try to book your flights on Tuesday afternoon (after 3) as prices usually drop.

Navigation:

If you aren’t from a city with much public transportation and are visiting a city with a lot of it, google maps will be your best friend. Google maps will show you when trains, subways, etc. are arriving and if you have service you can track it on your phone to make sure you get off at the right stop. This has been really helpful for me at foreign countries especially. Sometimes the public transportation has it’s own app so that way you can keep better track of where to go. Public Transit is always the most affordable option but if you prefer a car, make sure you have both uber and lyft on your phone.

Planning: 

Once you have the hotel, flights, and transportation figured out its time to keep them organized. I’ve used the app TripIt as a way to keep all my information together. It also has alerts which is nice to get when I have a trip coming up. This is especially helpful if you are booking on various sites since you can keep all the details in one place.

Let me know if you have additional tips and tricks. I’m always looking for more info!

Safe Travels,

Suzy [fragile, yet fearless]

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That one time in Portland.

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A few months ago I went on a trip to Portland, Oregon. Ever since then I’ve been trying to get this blog post up, but I wasn’t able to upload my pictures. Well, the pictures are here now! Being from California we hear a lot about Portland. We get told it’s a city filled with “hipsters” and is super quirky. To be honest, when I first got there I wasn’t that impressed. It was a lot like where I’m from so it wasn’t much of a different experience. However I grew to love certain neighborhoods and now find myself missing Portland a lot. From the beauty of the trees to the most amazing food. Here are a few of my favorite places in the city of weird.

Neighborhood: Alberta

A very artsy and youthful neighborhood with lots to do. Alberta not only has cool murals on the walls, but a couple of the streets are just filled with things to do. There’s small and unique stores for shopping and tasty places to eat at. My favorite spot there is definitely Salt & Straw for ice cream. Don’t pass up this awesome neighborhood if you’re ever near Portland.

Coffee: Cathedral and Dutch Bros

I am not going to lie. For the city that’s supposed to be all about it’s coffee, I was not that impressed. I am quite picky about my coffee and really only like iced drinks to be fair. There were a couple of places I did enjoy though. Cathedral coffeehouse can be found in the St. Johns neighborhood and let me just tell ya…I LOVE the chocolate chip cookies there. The coffee was quite tasty and the decor stood out too. Another coffee house which is a coffee chain is Dutch Bros. Not only is it affordable, but they have lots of unique flavors of coffee as well. It’s hard to get disappointed there.

Scenery: Forest Park and

One of the best things about Portland is that it is pretty much surrounded by trees. That was the first thing I noticed at least. I knew I had to go hiking when I was planning my trip, so I definitely made time for it. I went on a hike around Forest Park. The hike itself isn’t very difficult so you are able to take in the beauty of scenery there. With extremely tall trees I mean who wouldn’t want to break out into an impromptu photoshoot?!

Food:

Okay this part was definitely the BEST part of my trip, haha! The food in this city is brilliant! Pine State Biscuits serves some of the best southern food from a non southern state. Plus side is it’s is also located in my favorite neighborhood, Alberta. One of the places I ate at the most was Grassa. It is a casual pasta cafe. You order then sit, so when you’re ordering do yourself a favor and get the garlic bread. If you’re looking for a small plates option Tasty n Sons. Everything I got from there was delicious! As for dessert, Voodoo donuts is your best bet despite the long line. I’d say it’s worth the hype. Lastly, I can’t forget the food markets. I went to a really small one, but still found some awesome food and fresh drinks. Food markets have to be on your to do list for sure!

I hope this post gives you some ideas if you plan on visiting the city of Portland. If not, I hope it gives you the travelling bug like it did me…oops.

Happy Weekend,

Suzy [fragile, yet fearless]

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Time to get planning!

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My life is a mess to be honest. I myself am a mess sometimes. Im definitely the spur of the moment type of gal. Not that there is anything wrong with that, but as I get more into adulthood I’ve realized I need to sort my life out.

I decided to get a planner. I found this planner off amazon and am so happy to have it. I have a few doctors I see regularly so putting in my appointments in here is going to help me keep track. Also, there is a page for phone numbers so in case my phone ever dies I’ll be good to go. There are a few quotes in this planner as well that I really like. Besides all of that there is a to do list which I think will be quite helpful, since I like to brush things off and have a short attention span. I know I will be getting a lot of use out of this as a phone isn’t always the most reliable source. I’m excited to fill this whole thing up!

Happy Friday!

Suzy [fragile, yet fearless]

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